For people that know me well they know I am one of the most indecisive people out there. It is hard enough for me to decide what to wear, what I should have for lunch, what I should do tonight - how am I supposed to decide what to do with the rest of my life?
Yes, I am 9 months away from being 30 and still have no clear direction as to what my career should consist of the for the next 35 years.
Since the 3rd grade my dream has always been to train whales and dolphins. I dabbled in this for a bit, and realized you can't live on their measly salary (I really didn't want to have to eat Ramen for the rest of my life). I would have loved to say that I'm not in it for the money, but at some point realism has to be a priority.
My next choice was music. I'm not tooting my own horn - or I will since I've got one - but I am naturally good at music. Why not major in music I said? So I did.
But I fell in love - moved to a different state and that was the end of my life as a musician.
With no more music I got back into animals and went to school for Veterinary Technology. I worked in the field for a bit until I hurt my back - so that was unfortunately the end of that chapter.
Fast forward to the present day. I work with the Doctors who created Proactiv in their new skin care line "Rodan and Fields Dermatologists". I love their products, so it is pretty simple to be involved in the company. I've been doing a lot of administrative/managerial work. I am ok with this for now, but I still desire a career.
Here in lies my problem.
What do I want to do?
How are we supposed to decide what to do with our entire life?
I don't understand how someone can limit themselves to one specific area of work. I want to teach and nurse and so many other things but I can't narrow it down to just one.
How do people do it?
Another issue I have with this is the opinions people have of people like me. I get the feeling that people think I'm not smart, not determined, not a good worker because I don't have a clear direction for my working life. Just because I don't have a 'career' doesn't mean I don't work my ass off.
Indulge me please with what you all have decided to do with your lives, and how you came to the conclusion that this career was IT.
I apologize for the mishmash of paragraphs and thoughts on this post, but it was hard to narrow what I was trying to say in an organized lay out.